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Wednesday, July 27th, 2005
9:21 am	Lovin ev'ry minut o' this sum'r... 95 degrees it's supposed to be today. I love it. Renae and I have been having the best time together. Yesterday was so much fun. Sleeping in, BBQ, swimming, laying in the sun, watching some good ol television, "doin it", taking a nap, checked out the sibling's new crib, goin to the monkeys, comin home for snuggling. What a great day, and today should be like de ja vu. 40 pounds now. I had everybody lift up one of those giant pails of laundry soap from Costco, which weighs 32 pounds. I can't believe I've lost that much plus 8 pounds. It's monumental for me. I still have a long ways to go, but never once have I felt like giving up. Those of you who've tried to diet know the feeling. You get up, vowing to do well, and somewhere along the way, you may slip a little and have a piece of cake. "Well, fuck it," you think to yourself. "The day (week, month, etc.) is irrevocably screwed up now, so I'll eat whatever I want. I'll start again tomorrow (next week, next month, etc.). I was the queen of starting over, trying to diet perfectly. For some reason, this time, I have never felt like that once. We went to Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (better than the first one by FAR) and I got like $4.00 in candy and at more than half of it, and when I came home, I didn't run straight for the ice cream or cheese logs. I ate a normal dinner with no dessert that night. Something has changed in my brain...in my heart. I'll go for as long as it takes, and there will be times that I'll eat out and I'll consume 3000 calories in one day, but it won't matter. This time is it. I'm off to wake Renae so we can float around in the pool. Another beautiful day is ahead of us. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, July 18th, 2005
8:00 am	Another beautiful day is ahead... So, it's going to be about 92 degrees today and I am SO thankful for our pool this week. We were out there yesterday with Josh, Jeremy and Katie for about 8 hours. BBQ chicken sandwiches are SO good. My legs are red like a lobster, but my face is starting to take on the dark tan look of my mom. I love it. :) 39 pounds now! I start school in like 5 weeks, so I'm hoping to break the 50 mark by the time I start. This is by far the most weight I've ever lost, and it's been the easiest, funnest time I've ever had. I never (well mostly never, unless we're in a huge hurry for other plans like bowling or hanging out or something) dread going to the gym. I look forward to it and when I'm there, I have so much fun. I've even gone by myself, which is no small feat since I rarely do anything alone. :) And we still pretty much eat what we want. If I want it bad enough, then I'll have it (like that elephant ear in Long Beach that melted in my mouth). I just try to stay in the range of 1800 calories a day or less. At first, I was thinking there would be no way, but I get to eat a lot of food and still stay in my range. Ex. Yesterday I had Mini Wheats and Granola for breakfast which is 460 calories (a lot but well worth it because I stay full for so long and they taste so good) Lunch was Pita chips (they sound gross but if you go to Costco and try them, you'll be sayin, "Once it hits your lips, it's just SOOOOOO gooooooood!!") and Artichoke dip. I had three servings of Pita chips roughly and 1 serving of artichoke dip so my lunch was 490 calories. I had an ice cream sandwich: 130 calories. 3 bitch beers: 450 calories. And a chicken sandwich for dinner:330 calories. That's 1860 for yesterday. Sometimes, we go to Taco Bell and Renae and I share a spicy chicken crunch wrap supreme and we each have a chicken soft taco and that's only 490 calories. Add on my 460 calorie breakfast, a 400 calorie lunch and a 150 calorie snack or dessert and that's only 1500 calories. It's really easier than I ever thought. If I'm hungry, I eat...unless it's really late at night, then I know it's not worth that sick full feeling in bed. I feel like I'm preaching Jesus, but I'm really just having a blast with this. So, 8:15 now. I bet it's already 80 degrees out. Katie and Jeremy are coming at 11 (when Jeremy gets done with school) Randy and Lindsey may come (uninvited). Derrick from Renae's old work my come. I don't care who comes but I get the pink floatie! Current Mood: cheerful (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 12th, 2005
10:06 am	Sidenote... 35 pounds I'm up to. It's slow going but we've been out of town a lot. I'm feeling so good. I can do things and have the energy I haven't had for years. It's great. I love feeling good about myself again. (Comment on this)
9:47 am	This summer kicks so much ass. Man, I've just been having a blast this summer. Went camping at Beverly Beach. It was nice the first day we got there, but it rained the second day. We were all troopers about it though and we ended up driving into town to look for something to do, and the first thing we found was WALMART!!! I've never been so excited to see that store. We got one of those tarp cover thingies with poles to keep us out of the rain. Then we went to the laundrymat and dried our clothes and then into town where Randy, Lindsey and Renae went to Ripleys Believe It Or Not and Katie, Jeremy, Josh, Heather and I went and played in this tiny arcade. While walking on the bayfront, we got to see a sealion with a huge fish take an even bigger shit. (I've never seen a seal poop before) Once we got back, we all huddled under the tarp and made food. Campfires and marshmellows were much fun, as were beer chugging contests (which I mostly won). My final tally that night was 10 drinks, with one in my hand I decided against, and a half a shot that I gave away. Didn't get sick, but it was close. The next day, Randy and Lindsey went home. So did Josh and Heather and Jeremy. Katie, Renae and I drove to Safeway and got a rack of ribs to BBQ and made corn on the cob over the fire. The weather was nice for us all day, but we missed the sunset. It was much fun. Then we all slept in our GIANT tent. When we woke up, the weather was gorgeous. Went to the beach after we packed up our stuff, and then came back for lunch and drove home. It was an awesome camping trip, unmatchable. So, the next weekend, for the fourth, we went to Long Beach. Got there on Sunday and left on Tuesday. The weather was great the whole time. The cutest asain couple rented us two rooms for $65 a night. I had so much fun. We went to the arcade every day and I finally turned in all my tickets from years ago. I got 2 egyptian cotton beach towels that are the size of blankets. I love them. We got a frisbee and played frisbee on the beach in the water. We played put-put golf at the five hole course they had where we stayed. Did fireworks, tons and tons of glowsticks. Set up a screenhouse to huddle in before the fireworks. Watched fireworks as far as the eye could see both directions. Videotaped 30 minutes of the extravaganza. What good times we had. Next year, we're staying at the same place, but we're getting room number 9 which has 2 bedrooms, 2 baths, a kitchen, and a balcony where you can see the fireworks. Got back from there and then this last weekend, we went up to my mom's house, which was nice. I got Saturday off because they shut down our plant and we drove up there Saturday morning after I went to the gym. We just hung out, played frisbee and talked. Played basketball (H-O-R-S-E and P-I-G for scratch tickets) and ate good food. My mom made a roast on Sunday and she took us on their walk. We went and saw Fantastic Four (it was ok) and then played frisbee some more. It was nice seeing my mama. Yesterday and today, swimming at my house. BBQ burgers and chicken. Sunburns and topless swimming. Making whirlpools and tossing the frisbee. What a great summer I've been having! (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 26th, 2005
9:10 am	Today is the day! Going camping today. Just getting everything ready now. Gotta go to the gym first. Sky has to go with. She's going into heat. :( Weather looks like it'll be pretty nice, especially Tuesday and Wednesday. Whoo Hoo! (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 19th, 2005
9:31 am	Father's Day... Sunday. Went bowling last night with Randy, Lindsey, and Joe after hanging out with my family for Lindsey Leigh's grad party. I sucked bad. Got a 75 on my last game. 29 pounds so far. 6 days till we go camping. The forcast says rain, but I think we are prepared. We have some tarps to hang up over the campsite. Brian and Dodi are getting us a new dishwasher! They also asked my mom if we might be interested in buying the house because they are thinking of selling in the next 5 years. Something to ponder... Renae has 5 days left of work and then 72 days off!! Whoo Hoo! This summer is going to be great! I gotta get our pool set up after I build the gazebo for it. Pool parties and BBQs just around the corner. (Comment on this)
Monday, June 13th, 2005
2:09 pm	Going to the gym... Best decision ever. 25 pounds so far. I love going and I love the way it makes me feel before, after, and during. My resting heart rate is under 58. I'm feeling good and I fit into pants I wore four years ago. Long way to go, but I'll get there. Beach trip in 12 days. We're going to Beverly Beach. Katie and Jeremy, Randy and Lindsey, possibly Josh and his girlfriend, and us. 3 nights, four days, and hopefully, bright sunny weather. Going to Long Beach for the fourth with Katie and Jeremy. We're going the 3rd and coming back on the 5th. Looking forward to that as well. Everything is falling into place...into places I thought I'd never be. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 30th, 2005
5:54 pm	Another day, another dollar... So, Renae had her first official day at work today! She drove kids from Jason Lee to Heritage...not far, but still pretty stressful for her. She gets paid for four hours no matter how long it takes (i.e. 1, 2, or 3 hours) unless it's more than four and then she gets paid for more than four. Don't really know what we're doing tonight, but it's my Sunday...back to work tomorrow at 2pm. Went over to Katie and Jeremy's last night. Didn't get to hold his snake, but we played much Mortal Combat! Jeremy's snake is pretty cool, even Renae likes him. His name is Holmes and he's a Ball Python. It's weird holding snakes and if you haven't done it, I definetely recommend it. :) Met with my WSU advisor today to make sure everything's squared away and I'm on track. She says I'm on track, but I don't feel much that way. I'm feeling a little like a few drinks tonight. Sometimes, I just get those weird urges. Anyway, the dogs are FRANTICALLY scratching at the door to go outside, so it would probably behoove me to let them out before they leave me a present on the carpet. PEACE! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2005
1:57 pm	Eyeyiiiyiii! So, I skipped school again today. To be completely honest, my class on Mondays and Wednesdays..."Motivational Theories" with Kleinhesslink...yeah, um...that class started in January, after Spring Break, and I went to the first class and haven't been since! I have a test on Monday that I have to get ready for. I missed the first test and plan to make it up on the make up test day in April. I can't believe what a slacker I am! I'm just trying to pull a C in that class and I'll be happy. College is SUCH A JOKE! I'm going to be a senior after this semester and I feel like I've learned virtually nothing! I am able to skip way more than I could in high school and I don't miss enough to do worse on a test. I mean, seriously...I could go to a class every day and never miss one word of the teacher's boring monotonous lecture and take the test and get an A-, or I can skip 95% of all the classes and do last minute reading to catch myself up and take the test and get a B+ and even sometimes an A-. It's fucking ridiculous. And I have no idea what I want to do with it. I'll probably just stay at my job now. College is bullshit and it's a waste of money. It's a trick...no one is really any better for having gone that not gone. It's like buying a pair of Nautica sunglasses from Ross. People think you have money because you're wearing a $150 pair of sunglasses, but you got them for $15 bucks and you know it! People say, "Oh, I've got a BA from Harvard in Accounting...blah, blah, blah." It's all bullshit...interpreted, it means, "My parents just wasted $85,000 dollars on a pair of Nautica sunglasses from Ross." We can impress people because they think we're smarter, but really, we just paid a lot of money to earn blue collar worker's respect. I'm exactly the same person I was when I finished high school, educationally. I'm smarter in life, just from experience, but all college gave me was the ability to throw around words like hyperhabituation and cooperative-capitualation. It's humorous. On a lighter note, Renae and I got a car! Whoo Hoo! A Nissan Maxima. It's Black and it's an automatic. It "corners like it's on rails!" and it is super fast. All the important stuff you know. I got my first speeding ticket last week. Not in the newest car, but in our Nissan Pathfinder on my way home from work. It was great. 81 mph in a 60. $183 bucks! First time I've ever been pulled over even. Bummer. Katie and Jeremy doing well. We're making plans for the fourth. So looking forward to that. Camping as well. If I can get this math class out of the way, then I'll have from the end of June off until the end of August, which will be great. Renae will have the summer off, so we'll be able to go out of town every Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday, for two months! Anyway, I have to go hop in the shower...Nae is due home any minute. (Comment on this)
Friday, February 25th, 2005
4:01 pm	So, how are you journal? Sorry about the neglect. It seems I have a hard time with a journal, be it online or on paper. Oh well, I guess I should have something to say since it's been so long, eh? I just got two wisdom teeth pulled yesterday...my bottom ones. I wasn't under anesthesia, but they did this thing called conscious sedation where the put some kind of drug in and IV. Supposedly, I was conscious for the whole thing, but I remember nothing and it was great. I spent pretty much the whole day yesterday sleeping and being drugged on Novacane, Vicoden, and 800 mg Motrin. Renae fed me pudding and cream of broccoli soup. Fun stuff. Today, I'm still taking the Vicoden for pain and Motrin for swelling. I am getting ready to slip back into that drug induced euphoria of painlessness here in the next 45 minutes or so. One great thing about it is I get all the ice cream I want and Renae is making me mashed potatoes for dinner! Whoo Hoo! So, what else is new? Renae got a new job. She is in training right as I type. She is going to be a bus driver for the Vancouver School District. She is so excited and I am so excited too. After she finishes with being a substitute driver, she will be making $16.59 an hour and she gets all the breaks that students do. i.e. summer vacation, christmas vacation, thanksgiving, etc. She'll be able to come home and hang out between routes, just like my mom used to. It makes me very happy, because we can stay on track with our plan of getting pregnant not this July but next July. She'll get excellent benefits, 401k and dental. It's very exciting. We sold my Honda to Katie, because her transmission went out. So, now we've been car searching for a newer vehicle. I want a Honda Accord or Civic, four door. Renae wants a Toyota RAV4 four door, with a moon roof and tinted windows, CD player a must for us both. We have $6000 cash and want to spend no more than $8000, so we're looking at a 1998 to 2000, somewhere around there. We've looked at Honda Odysseys, Toyotas, Accords, Civics, CRV's, RAV4's, Subaru Foresters...all kinds of cars. The cars we really like, noone will call us back on or they've already been sold, but we've only half-heartedly been into it, because we've been waiting to see if Renae got the job as a bus driver to think about our spending capacity in a new light. I still don't really want to be in much debt over a car, so I'll think we'll stick to our first plan. I'd rather start saving for a house now. Anyway...so what else? I'm still working at the same place...got a raise, I make $13.26 now. I like it, but I wish it paid more. Still going to school and all that. I like school too, but I wish I had more time outside of school and work, so I end up skipping too much. :) Katie has a new boyfriend. He's pretty great for her. He's 25 and is from Massachusetts. He has curly dark hair and dark eyes. He's a DJ...loves to spin "recerds" as they say in Massachusetts. He's very charming and independent, and financially smart. He goes to Clark like Katie, but he's taking business classes. He spent four years in the military and so they pay for his school and he gets a monthly check from the army for spending. I like him a lot. He's exactly the kind of guy Katie has needed all along. He's not clingly or jealous. He's older than her and therefore much more mature and ready for a relationship as opposed to a teenage pedestal/obsession thing. He's talkative and friendly to everyone and he doesn't throw little fits or play the whole silent game until you can figure out what's wrong with him. He's not the kind of guy who'll do or say something stupid every five minutes and apologize 10 times a day for being an asshole. He's very thoughtful and mature. He's the kind of guy she has wanted all along and she finally knows what it feels like to be IN love, not just to love someone. I'm very happy for her and for the four of us because I see many great adventures and vacations in the future. Fourth of July is going to be a blast, but what's going to be even better is when Katie turns 21 and we can do all of the adult things she is missing out on. I forsee trips to the Three Monkeys for pool and beer, jaunts to P-town for video poker and fun, beach trips to Lincoln City where we stay in houses with hot tubs and gamble at the casino. We'll sneak our beers to the bathroom so we don't have to pay five dollars a pop. Hopefully, Jeremy will be going to Vegas with us for Katie's 21st. It's going to be a lot of fun to have that guy around. Camping trips in the summer with no school. BBQs in the back yard. Movies, and dinners, and nights out with no plan of action. Good times indeed. I can't wait till this summer. Current Mood: accomplished (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 26th, 2004
8:14 pm	Yeah, whatever. It's just depressing to sit back and watch Katie's relationship deteriorate; especially when she's actually trying to make things work. I may be just learning, and I know there are a lot of people out there who hate psychologists because they try to fit everyone into categories and figure everyone out, but it's just naive to think that you can't. If you think you're an individual, you're sadly mistaken, because there are at least 100 other people in the world who are JUST LIKE YOU. Everything you think has already been thought. Every epiphany you think you have, every grand feeling you may feel, every twisted emotion pulsing through your body has already been thought and felt by someone else. We are bundles of hormones and synapses. As much as this society tries to make you think you are an individual, you are not, cannot be. We all fit into categories. It may not be as nice and perfect as type one = AB type two = CD and type three = EF but it's close. We may be 80% AB, 15% CD and 5% EF or some other combo, but we all fit into these categories. Individuation is imaginary. What I'm getting at is very depressing. Katie and Wes will NEVER be compatible with their personalities the way they are right now. They both fit SO nicely into categories. Katie is narcissistic, Wes lacks self-esteem. Wes is in need of approval and fits quite nicely into the "preoccupied attachment style" where Katie is in the "Dismissing Attachment style". She knows she is good enough to find a partner, but can't seem to commit herself fully to the relationship. Wes is in the Passionate Love stage, where Katie has moved beyond that. Wes sees no faults in Katie, puts her on a pedestal, thinks he can't live or breathe without her; very obviously the Passionate Love category I've been learning about, or more often heard as "falling head over heels in love". Katie is now realizing Wes's faults, seeing the relationship through different eyes, and realizing it's not as great as she thought it was, as many people do when they move out of the Passionate Love stage. Wes is also young and in the stage of "I am an individual, noone is just like me, this love is real and noone can tell me different stage; also known as the "invincibility phase" that almost all young adults go through. It's sad to see all the signs, all the stereotypes come true, all the categories fit, and there's really nothing you can do. My prediction based on ONE class of training: Wes will lose some weight and things will be wonderful. Katie will move into and back out of Passionate Love. Wes's insecurities will continue to grow, while Katie's Dismissing Attachment style will continue to push him away, further aggravating his attachment style. Eventually, Katie's high self-esteem will push her into Active/Exit and the relationship will come to an end, with Wes's heart broken, and Katie's heart wounded but quickly mended when a cuter and more "hard-to-get" guy comes into her life. Please prove me wrong you two. (Comment on this)
Friday, May 7th, 2004
7:25 am	Stupid whistling woman. Elle Driver (California Mountain Snake) You're Elle Driver! Sly and evil, you can manipulate people in order to get whatever you want. You're usually alone, but that's the way you like it. You hate having others nearby to order you around (unless it's Bill, of course... but even then you're still hesitant). Kill Bill: Which Deadly Viper Assassin Are You? (Vol. II spoilers... results with pics) Man, I was afraid of that. Meh. :( (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 7th, 2004
8:28 am	A whole year... It's been a whole year since I've updated this thing. The crazy thing is, last time I updated I was going to Reno and it was the end of March. Through no planning whatsoever, we ended up going back to Reno at exactly the same time one year later. Weird. (Comment on this)
Monday, March 24th, 2003
9:39 pm	Reno, reno, reno, reno... I'm stoked. In 16 hours, I will be at a slot machine...throwing my quarters in. I promised my mom that the first five bucks I put in, whatever I win if I win, we will split. Wanna know how I made that deal? I made her eat a piece of pineapple and she HATES fruit. :) It was funny...like she thought she was eating a slug or something. I'm really looking forward to getting away for a bit. School has been driving me hard and work is long, and it's been a grip since I've had a vacation. It's going to be tight, even if we don't win. I've been really depressed inside this last couple days, however, because of all this war shit. It's hard because I really don't support the war, but I support the people out there who are willing to protect us at the cost of their lives. My cousin is out there and he's right at the heart of it all, and I just think about it all the time...he's only 19, just a baby yet...I don't even think he's been laid. It all just seems so senseless, like a real life video game. How can there be "rules" in war? There are two sides, aiming to get the other...both sides think the other is bad...you can take prisoners but there are ethics and rules involved. It's all just so fucked up...and seeing and thinking about those prisoners captured and their families at home worrying about them just tears me up. It's worse somehow that their families know they are prisoners...and that they will probably be tortured and murdered. Horrible and unreal. And to think that people I know may become one of them...it's just sad. Anyway, on a bright side, I got high score on Ms. Pac-Man at the bar with my mom!! 114,000 points! I've been trying for weeks. If I win big in Reno, I'm still planning on getting my own video arcade version. It'd be so bangin'. Current Mood: excited Current Music: My mom laughing on the bed at Snoopy... (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 22nd, 2003
8:53 pm	I'm so fucking tired... And I want to go to bed, but I want to hang out with Renae when she gets off work, but she doesn't get off for another 2 hours. We partied late last night. We took Randy home at 3:30 am and I think we were in bed by four. I had to get up at 6:30. Ugh...I barely made it through the day. I swear I fell asleep driving onto a trailer...but on the bright side, I only have one more day of work and I can sleep as much as I want to Monday. Maybe I'll just go to bed until my babe gets home. Randizzle wants us to call him tonight when Renae gets home...that'll happen... Can't remember the last time I was this tired. :) But it was fun...we sure do have a blast together, me and my babe. Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Friday, March 14th, 2003
7:33 pm	I'm fucking bored and I don't want to work tomorrow... And that about sums it up. I can't wait for Renae to get home. *Henry turns, flicks his tail, sailing a giant poo patty in my direction* Current Mood: crappy Current Music: Who cares? (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 13th, 2003
8:56 pm	I ain't gonna lie... I think I just might make the best teriyaki chicken ever... *smiles complacently* It only takes me about 3 hours. :) I'm not too shabby with baked potatoes either. (I have a secret recipe) Other things I'm good at: Checkers, eating, procrastinating, torturing Henry with my singing, getting what I want, looking mean, but being a GIANT scaredy cat... Good enough. Just chillin, waiting for Nae to come home from work. Muh Sistah is out with Kari and Kori at Lloyd Center. They invited me, but I am just too fat and too old to hang out with 18 year olds at the mall. I'd just look like their uncool mom. Plus, I totally had to research these 6 questions I have for my Women's Studies final. I can't wait for this chicken...and my baked potatoes. Yummy. Current Mood: complacent Current Music: Kelly Clarkson-Moment Like This... (2 Comments |Comment on this)
6:27 pm	3-3-03 That was the day the lights went off in Vancouver... That was the last time I got to be in the house I grew up in. The power is back. But those lights of my past will be out forever. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Madonna-This Used to be My Playground (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 11th, 2003
8:10 pm	The week is almost over... Well...I know, it's only Tuesday, but it all flies by so fast that it really is almost over. Got my paper for Women's Studies done; glad that's out of the way. Now, I have math homework up the ass...I've been putting it off and putting it off, and now, my test is on Thursday and I'm completely lost, frustrated, and confused. Errrrrrr... I REALLY want to take this summer off and just finish Fall and Winter quarter, but I just don't think that's gonna fly. It would be so nice though. I gotta check out what the semesters are like at WSU and if the second semester doesn't start before the end of December, it just might work... *crosses fingers tightly together and says a little prayer to the devil* *laughs quietly at the thought of praying to the devil* Jeezo, what a night last night. Talked to my mom, got flustered, angry, and sad all at once. The conversation ended something like this: Mom: "Do you think I want to move? If I had my rathers, I wouldn't be moving." Me: "Yeah, but when this all started six months ago, if you didn't want to move, you could've told dad not to look for a job in Seattle." Mom: "Well...yeah." Me: Nobody ever asked Katie or I how we felt about it. I never...*silence, trying to hold back tears*...mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmeeeeeeeeeeeeeeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...*hang up phone* Now, what I meant to say was, "I never wanted you to move. You're never going to see your grandbabies. Sunni & Sky will never get to "go see Snoopy". I won't be able to come visit when I have a bad day. I won't get to hear about your bad and good days at the bus garage. I will be missing years of my life with you because you will be up there 97% of the time and I will be here, working and going to school. I hate it. I hate that you're moving and I don't want you to go." But no...I got so far as, "I never..." and then this gruesome, pitiful squeal escaped from my throat and just would NOT STOP! I hung up the phone in mid-squeal and left the computer room to sob in Katie & Renae's arms. Ahhhhh...I love it when you plan something some way and it totally blows up in your face. I've been thinking about what to say to my mom for weeks now...shit...I can just hear it over and over..."I never...meeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.." Ah well...today was even better. I left class early and drove home in tears the whole way, reminiscing about everything sad I could possibly think of about my mom leaving. Then, I crawled into bed with Renae and sobbed some more. I'm a mess. And I don't want my mom to go. But on the bright side of things, having Katie here is fun and it feels natural. Her livingroom and bedroom are kickass...better than I imagined. I ran to Walmart today and bought goodies to fill up her fridge for her room for a surprise. I just want her to feel more at home, because I know we're all going through some tough times right now. That was fun. Renae gets off in 30 and then she will be here with me, and that will be fun. I better pull out that math homework. It haunts my every happy thought. "No one said it would be easy...but no one said it'd be this hard. No one said it would be easy...but no one thought we'd come this far..." *Henry and I hum quietly along, swaying melodically to Sheryl Crow singing and playing her aquostic guitar* *sigh* Just keep breathing... Current Mood: sad Current Music: Pretenders...I'll Stand By You (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, March 7th, 2003
8:19 pm	Ok, so I said no parties a bit prematurely... Randizzle called and wants to kick it tonight, so...*sigh*, what can you do? :) I'm psyched because it gives me something to look forward to before I have to go to work for the next two days...from 8-8 need I remind anyone. Renae's due home in 30 and I'm just kickin' back, getting ready to crack open one of those orange things. I shaved Sky Pie...she looks like she weighs about 2 pounds! It's cute, if you like rats, because that's what she looks like. I think I saw Sunni laugh at her, but maybe it was just a high-pitched cough. I don't know what I'll ever do if I get into an accident at work. I'd hate to lose my job because where else will I take home $800 a month for just working Saturdays & Sundays? What a cush job for school. Tim was trying to IM me, but I didn't answer because I was afraid he'd say he actually COULD come over tonight, and...well, he can't come over anymore because there's gonna be some illegal psychotropic substances being passed around up in here. You know what I don't understand, and it really pisses me off? All the rappers and rockers talk about smoking weed on TV all day long, but they never get busted. I watched "Cribs" today and the guy who's dating Pink had this GIANT bong in his kitchen with like 8 spouts coming out of it. You'd think that since it was on TV, the cops would raid the place, but no, they won't. Dammit. I decided today that I need $25 million dollars. To get my business going of course. What business? Ummmmmm...I'm not telling, but it has to do with video games, drinking, driving, basketball, and prizes. Yep, $25 million. I had a vision this morning...just $25 million and all of my dreams will come true. "What you want, baby I got it...mmmm...What you need, you know I got it...All I'm asking, is for a little respect when you get home...hey baby, when you get home..." *Henry breaks out in the funky chicken while I break dance on the floor* Current Mood: giddy Current Music: *happy dancing men in my head* (1 Comment |Comment on this)